and there is this cute little old Asian grandpa trying to convince his daughter to buy her kids a turtle. He speaks perfectly good English and is only about 70 but for some reason he really reminds me of my own grandpa. It's been eleven years since he died but sometimes it seems like it was only yesterday. Right now I would give almost anything to be a little girl again, sitting in his lap and sharing my ice cream.

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I have to go to Provo today to check out a tenant. Crap. I detest Provo.

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I miss my cat.

what the frick I want to do with my life. I've always had this vision of myself as an author floating around but as the book has been in evolution for six years and counting I obviously need to have a better day job.

As everyone who has talked to me recently knows, I am rapidly growing to detest children. Being a sub has completely eradicated their charms and increased all the irritating little generalities. At this moment I can think of only three children under the age of 18 (all of whom I have known for years and whom I am very close to) who don't make me want to lock myself in an underground bunker or pull out a can of child-repellent. I often find myself wishing that the child catcher in Chitty Chitty Bang Bang was an actual person with a real life occupation. What I wouldn't give for a tall stone tower to lock all the little monsters away in.

This being said, yes I am on the hunt for a new job. But once again my own fickle mind is standing in my way. I just flat out don't want any of the jobs I can find. And whenever I try to seriously consider any of them my mind freezes up and I find myself sitting in the dark trying very hard to disappear.

Issues? Yes.

Well its taken about six months but the server is finally accessible again and I have updated my main page for 2008. Yay!

So once again, new attempt at keeping a blog.