Monday, May 4, 2020

Been trying to make use of all the "extra time" by working on my writing.  My sister is hard at work finishing up the cover and map for book 1, and then it will all be up to me to get over my fears and actually get started on publishing.  That's right.  After EIGHTEEN years (yikes), I am finally close to putting the first part of my life's work out there for the world (hopefully) to see.

As for book 2?  Of course I've already started :)  I recently completed chapter 10, and am thrilled with how it came out.  And with how much quicker I write these days.  I started this series as I was getting ready to graduate from university, and looking back, I sure had no idea what I was doing.  It's taken a LOT of hard work, but I really am proud of what I've created!

 

Monday, January 6, 2020

And here we are...

In a little over an hour it will be my birthday.  My 40th birthday.  It is a day that (despite all logic and common sense), I never thought would actually arrive.  And quite frankly?  I am NOT amused.  I am too young to be this old.  I haven't accomplished anything that I wanted to do by the time I reached "middle age".  If I wasn't so dejected I'd be crying right now.  Heck, I WANT to cry, but my stupid antidepressants won't even let me get that right!

So anyway, I'm sitting here all alone next to a Christmas tree that has also seen better days, with the mundane sound of my laundry running in the background, and I'm trying to psych myself up for attempt number one zillion at getting a life.  They say it begins at 40 right?  Well I'm gonna put that theory to the test

On the other hand, I still don't WANT to be this old!  So I've decided that since I was born in January of 1980, I was born in a leap decade!  (It could be a thing!)  Which means that in 67 minutes I will be 4 birthdays old!  Hah!  Still younger than my brother who was born on February 29th and is about to turn 11 I will be 4.0!  A newer and better version than 3.9 and DEFINITELY better than 2.1 or (yikes!  Beta!) 0.6.

This is the year I intend to FINALLY get my book published.  (I'm sooooooooooo close!)  I will FINALLY get off my butt and get into shape.  (I'm sooooooooooo NOT close!)  And hopefully I will also find a little bit of self-respect!  (I'm sooooooooooooo confused by the concept!)

And in the meantime, I will try to actually post once in awhile.  (Woohoo!  Over 2 years since I last bothered!)

Monday, August 14, 2017

There is nothing quite so special as lunch with your sweet sister...


Saturday, August 12, 2017

Milestone?

So tonight I ran to the Walmart to pick up a few things.  It was supposed to be a quick in and out trip, 30 minutes at the most.  But instead, I ran into a friend and ended up standing there, talking and laughing while her eleven year old daughter waited with anxious boredom, for almost an hour.

I am officially old.  And I think I may be my mother now too...

Saturday, July 29, 2017

First Good Day In Months... So Far...

Just got back from having lunch with my two oldest friends.  We grew up together and were once the three musketeers, but now we're lucky if we get to see each other once a year.

It was super fun, and super relaxing, and most of all, it was nice to just get out of my head and be free from anxieties for a few hours.

Nothing like childhood friends to make you feel like a kid again...

Sunday, July 23, 2017

Still lost

Another week down, still very confused by my current state of being.  I don't really know if I'm coming or going anymore.  Been fighting off panic all week long over very stupid things which must be dealt with sooner or later, but I just can't face them yet.

And I'm still very weirded out by the lack of physical response to my panic...