Welcome to Bananalicious...
I recently read a quote which, while steeped in long words and borderline manger speak, essentially pointed out that in our society we live our lives backwards: we get things, so we can do things, so we can be things. While what we should be doing is being things, so we can do things, so we can get things. We should be who we are, so we can do what we need, to get what we truly want.
This quote struck a nerve. I am a person who has been fighting depression, chronic stress, chronic anxiety, and chronic fear for most of my adult life. For much of that time I was content to stew in my own psychological filth and feel sorry for myself, but for a long time now, I have wanted to change. I have wanted something more. What I really want is to be HAPPY.
So will the above formula work? Can I achieve happiness simply by turning around my thinking process? If I act like I'm happy, will this encourage me to do things that happy people do? And will that in turn actually bring me real happiness? It's an intriguing idea, and one I'm willing to try.
So first things first, I decided to revamp my blog. Again. I deleted all my old posts so that I can start from scratch with a new "happy centered" frame of mind. I removed all negativity from the other pages, and I'm going to start posting happy thoughts. If no one but myself ever reads them, that's ok, because it's the exercise of DOING that is supposed to be beneficial. Maybe if I start focusing on the good things in my life, I will be able to let go of some of the terrible negativity that's been weighing me down for so long.
And maybe (fingers crossed), a few months down the line, I will be able to look back and see that it's not all just an act anymore...
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